Today supposedly i should meet sam for his birthday celebration but i didn't go. I went to attend to some of my stuff. They went clubbing anyway, I don't really enjoy clubbing. By the way hope you will not be upset. Anyway happy birthday sam!
Had a long day, went working, some special mission with eben and caught a movie (Phobia 2). It had been so long, since i watched a movie which was my favourite past time hobby. I spent my holiday more fruitfully by helping out with eben's father business. Anyway his dad is running a landscape business. To simplify it is to maintain the landscape (flowers, grasses, plants, trees and etc) mainly in private estate or condomindium. Just got my pay today. GREAT!
These few weeks other than work, i set aside some time to play majiong with my few majiong kaki, steamboat gathering with my classmates, poker session with ashley and friends and also some freshwater fishing and an offshore trip. AWESOME! I feel good being able to maintain work and play. At least i don't feel like i'm a bum doing nothing other than the everyday's usual gambling.
Until now i'm still thinking of my results, how do i fare? Did i maintain a 4? I'm so worried man. If i drop my GPA, seriouslly i will be damn sad. Thinking back after all nothing is so secure, i got 4 for the last two semester but just because of a paper it might bring me to my downfall. My dreams of maintaining a GPA4, COM holder and might even lose the chance of getting into a good poly and the course that i want to enter. Results will be release either this coming week or the following week. FASTER! i just can't wait.....I need an answer badly.
i recently got very vexed over the course to take in poly. Should i take up civil engineering or accountancy? I had a talk with my dad, asking him for advice. He asked me to pick something that i prefer. He's like not answering the question. These are just some of my views: I wanted to take accountancy because i think there's prospect in term of Job scope and the pay. Most importantly it is relevant and a very important element in the "thing" that i plan to do in the future. To set up my own business. But i'm still not very sure what accountancy is like in poly, university and futher studies. I don't know if it will suit me and i don't want to have any regret. Engineering..I somehow got influence by my dad because of his occupation as an engineer and was he doing well at a point of time. And i believe that he will be able to guide me along and teach me the things that he know in the trade. But i'm neither a good art student nor good DnT student. I don't think i will excel in this trade as i don't have the fundamentals. But it's just my hope that to take over my dad's business and helped him to develop and expand.
I'm tired........Turning in at 5.45am...
Tingle of regrets
It had been so long since i last logged in to my friendster, MSN and facebook account. This few days were crazy. Study, studying and studied.... Just finished with my exams yestterday, a sigh of relieve but i'm still feeling stress and pessimistic of my results. I was quite confident of my first two papers but the last paper was a flop. This could be a mark of an end to my 4 pointer. i badly wanted to maintain it but i think i did real bad this time round due to my lack of practise. I have been concentrating too much on my first paper and playing too much nowadays. Past few days is like hell, sleeping as early as 8pm and waking up in the middle of the night to study. I have been sleeping for like 5-6hours a day for the past few days. And my biggest weakness is that i cannot perform well if i didn't have enough sleep, i must sleep for a least 8 to 10 hours day.
Well...the exams is already over i'm supposed to relax but the image of a drop in my GPA keep surfacing up in my head and i'm feeling very disturbed. I looked back with a tingle of regret for not starting earlier. Too many poker games for the past few weeks before examination. I'm getting brought away by thing easily and i have lost my discipline. I just couldn't let go even until now, i called Miss chew around late afternoon asking her how much i will drop in my GPA if i got a grade B for my AA. She asked me why i'm always so pessimistic. She told me that everything is gonna be fine and said there's nothing to be done. She is a very good teacher when i always asked for help or advice, she never fails to help me. Apperciated that. But honestly speaking most of the teachers in ITE are generally good and more sincere. I doubt that things will still be the same it polytechnic.
I have been thinking of ways to set up a buiness of my own. I have been stagnant for too long since I stopped taking team for the door to door sales. And wei pang imported some electronic products for car uses and i went with him to a neighbourhood carpark to test the market. Sadly the response was poor and we might be going to shopping malls carpark for a second test. I'm already 18years old and i wanted to own a car of my own badly. I haven't even got my license. Need to buck up....Thinking of what to do for this holiday, something that is meaningful. I doubted i will be in the mood to fully enjoy this holiday until i get to see my results. I just couldn,t let go. PRAY hard for me guys that i will be able to maintain my results.