Tingle of regrets

It had been so long since i last logged in to my friendster, MSN and facebook account. This few days were crazy. Study, studying and studied.... Just finished with my exams yestterday, a sigh of relieve but i'm still feeling stress and pessimistic of my results. I was quite confident of my first two papers but the last paper was a flop. This could be a mark of an end to my 4 pointer. i badly wanted to maintain it but i think i did real bad this time round due to my lack of practise. I have been concentrating too much on my first paper and playing too much nowadays. Past few days is like hell, sleeping as early as 8pm and waking up in the middle of the night to study. I have been sleeping for like 5-6hours a day for the past few days. And my biggest weakness is that i cannot perform well if i didn't have enough sleep, i must sleep for a least 8 to 10 hours day.

Well...the exams is already over i'm supposed to relax but the image of a drop in my GPA keep surfacing up in my head and i'm feeling very disturbed. I looked back with a tingle of regret for not starting earlier. Too many poker games for the past few weeks before examination. I'm getting brought away by thing easily and i have lost my discipline. I just couldn't let go even until now, i called Miss chew around late afternoon asking her how much i will drop in my GPA if i got a grade B for my AA. She asked me why i'm always so pessimistic. She told me that everything is gonna be fine and said there's nothing to be done. She is a very good teacher when i always asked for help or advice, she never fails to help me. Apperciated that. But honestly speaking most of the teachers in ITE are generally good and more sincere. I doubt that things will still be the same it polytechnic.

I have been thinking of ways to set up a buiness of my own. I have been stagnant for too long since I stopped taking team for the door to door sales. And wei pang imported some electronic products for car uses and i went with him to a neighbourhood carpark to test the market. Sadly the response was poor and we might be going to shopping malls carpark for a second test. I'm already 18years old and i wanted to own a car of my own badly. I haven't even got my license. Need to buck up....Thinking of what to do for this holiday, something that is meaningful. I doubted i will be in the mood to fully enjoy this holiday until i get to see my results. I just couldn,t let go. PRAY hard for me guys that i will be able to maintain my results.